My Girls @ Tea Party!

Life's been treating me kind. I find myself a much much MUCH MUCH happier person. Perhaps the previous relationship really wasn't meant to be. I seem to be holding on for the sake of holding on.. the ex was a nice guy, but we weren't exactly blissful together anymore. Towards the end, there were countless petty argument all the time.. and they really were unnecessary cos the triggers were trivial misinterpretation and over-sensitivity which are too tiring to deal with so frequently.

The relationship has been tainted too many times. I'm actually quite pissed over the fact he kept accusing my faithfulness cos I didn't visit him while he was running a high fever though he was under the intensive care of his loving mother. There's nothing wrong I chose not to visit him cos I couldn't afford to risk an infection as my immunity against such bugs is weak. I would risk it to take care of him IF there wasn't anyone else around for but the thing is, at that time, he had the luxury of having a loving mum showering him with so much attention. Till date, I still think the fuss he kicked up is pretty retarded.

Wasn't easy to take that leap of faith to move on but I'm now certain that this is one of the best choices I have made for myself. I may not be able to find someone who dotes on me as much, but I'm sure there are nice guys out there who will also love wholeheartedly as well, that's all I ask for. I just glad now, I get the liberty to decide as an adult, the kind of person I want to live with for the rest of my life. Could be a better guy, could be ... myself? *shrugs*

Nevermind the HDB and its forfeit of $$, perhaps I'm just not meant to move into one? Been having fantasies about having giant breed dogs running about my house.. *trying to be optimistic*

Went to Cheryl's tea-party for a short while on Sunday. Cheryl can seriously whip up GREAT dishes!! I've said this before, but I'm gonna say it again, I look forward only to the pastries Cheryl makes. THAT'S how delectable it is! It's a shame I had to leave the girls early.. (I had to ^^) something funny happened on my way out but I won't share it here... yet. My girls, they are sooooooooo adorable. So so so so so so so crazily adorable!!

I had a nasal tract infection last Monday, was recovering before the same bug hit me again last Friday. Been trying to battle it without the aid from medication.... and I lost my voice completely today.

At first, I thought it was pretty fun having a slightly lower-pitched voice. I even sang and recorded the sound of my 'new' singing voice. On Monday I started to sound like a tranny... then a day after I declared to everyone that I can do a voice over for T-Rex in Jurassic Park. Finally, I became a mute today.. time to see the doctor!! I made this decision after nothing is heard when I tried singing while skipping to the bathroom this morning. Don't wanna risk any permanent alteration in my voice!!

I'm a mute just for today, at the same time I'm also a newbie, otherwise known as a noob mute. To minimise awkward moments, I took the bus instead of the cab just so that I do not need to struggle to speak or be understood. Here's the problem, I HAD STRONG CRAVINGS FOR KOI. I neeeeeeeed to drink it, I haaaaaaave to buy it but how should I order?

I hadn't have a plan to go about ordering it but I forced myself to the counter anyway. So when the staff greeted me...

Me:*points*
Staff: Grass Jelly Milk Tea?
Me: *nods happily*
Staff: Medium or large?
Me: *points*
Staff: sugar level?
Me: *points*
Staff: *Stretches neck to look over* oh ok 50%?
Me: *smiles and nods very very enthusiastically*
Staff: Pearl or no pearl?
Me: *gestures a no by waving*
Staff: that's $3.50
Me: *GRINS and hands over money*

Haha, things we do for food!!

SOOOOOO proud of myself *beams*

P/S
I wonder too, what's causing the reluctance.. what is it that I really fear?